wonderful long weekend
Tuesday is today, the 22nd of February. I don't know how time flies by so fast. ..it's already the end of the month! There's only two more weeks left then finals. The quarter system seems a lot shorter than semester. Maybe I'm just not use to the fast-paced schedule. It feels like I've been drowning lately. There's so many things to do, so little time, laziness...I don't know how I made it to almost the end of the quarter. I think I've been doing things just to get by each day. I don't feel like I have control or are being proactive about stuff.
I had a really long, tiring, and hard last week. I had a cold for most of the week and would not go away. I also had chronic fatigue...feels like I still do. Usually, I don't sleep that much, around 6 hours or so, but I was sleeping so much and still tired. I also substituted for the first time on tuesday. Normally, the class behaves well with the master teacher. But for some reason, they were not listening to me. It was soo hard for me to get all of their attention and then teach them stuff. I felt like I was doing a horrible job and just wanted to cry. The next day, a real sub came in and she controlled the class like it ain't no thang. They didn't know her, it was her first time there and they were actually listening to her. After that, I really questioned myself and if I had what it took to be a teacher.
As long and hard as it was--I survived and I still want to be a teacher. There are definitely good weeks and really, really bad ones. I hear this a lot from other teachers. My master teacher has been teaching for over 20 years and was telling me that there are times when she wants to throw her hands in the air and give up. Then she thinks about one of her past students who had a really hard time in school. She came from a spanish-speaking home where no one could help her, was one of the low-end learners, struggled with every subject and who other teachers already gave up on. But this student did not give up. She would work at a problem until she got it even though it took her ten times longer than other kids. She stayed in during recesses and lunch to finish her work....with a smile on her face. So whenever my master teacher wants to give up she thinks about this girl. I could tell by listening to her that she was really touched by this student.
Anyways, after a loooong week, I had a wonderful weekend. We went out to butterfly on friday night and got our dance on...haven't done that in a while. I miss dancing~ Saturday--got up early for a substitution orientation, had lunch with John, and had a lazy day! Sunday--first day of name tags at church and studied. Monday--sister time with Susannie! We ate lunch in berkeley, went to target for 2.5 hours!!! ( l love that place =P) Then we watched A Wedding Date with Debra Messing and that cute guy ( he's in my best friends wedding...don't know his name). Then I made kimchi-jjigae for dinner....my favorite!! I still can't make it like my mom did though =(. I miss her cooking~
I'm in computer class right now and should go back to my boring presentation on Jalapeno Bagels (a story my class is reading).
I had a really long, tiring, and hard last week. I had a cold for most of the week and would not go away. I also had chronic fatigue...feels like I still do. Usually, I don't sleep that much, around 6 hours or so, but I was sleeping so much and still tired. I also substituted for the first time on tuesday. Normally, the class behaves well with the master teacher. But for some reason, they were not listening to me. It was soo hard for me to get all of their attention and then teach them stuff. I felt like I was doing a horrible job and just wanted to cry. The next day, a real sub came in and she controlled the class like it ain't no thang. They didn't know her, it was her first time there and they were actually listening to her. After that, I really questioned myself and if I had what it took to be a teacher.
As long and hard as it was--I survived and I still want to be a teacher. There are definitely good weeks and really, really bad ones. I hear this a lot from other teachers. My master teacher has been teaching for over 20 years and was telling me that there are times when she wants to throw her hands in the air and give up. Then she thinks about one of her past students who had a really hard time in school. She came from a spanish-speaking home where no one could help her, was one of the low-end learners, struggled with every subject and who other teachers already gave up on. But this student did not give up. She would work at a problem until she got it even though it took her ten times longer than other kids. She stayed in during recesses and lunch to finish her work....with a smile on her face. So whenever my master teacher wants to give up she thinks about this girl. I could tell by listening to her that she was really touched by this student.
Anyways, after a loooong week, I had a wonderful weekend. We went out to butterfly on friday night and got our dance on...haven't done that in a while. I miss dancing~ Saturday--got up early for a substitution orientation, had lunch with John, and had a lazy day! Sunday--first day of name tags at church and studied. Monday--sister time with Susannie! We ate lunch in berkeley, went to target for 2.5 hours!!! ( l love that place =P) Then we watched A Wedding Date with Debra Messing and that cute guy ( he's in my best friends wedding...don't know his name). Then I made kimchi-jjigae for dinner....my favorite!! I still can't make it like my mom did though =(. I miss her cooking~
I'm in computer class right now and should go back to my boring presentation on Jalapeno Bagels (a story my class is reading).
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